- Thursday, October 25, 2007 -
im dying alrdy..or u should say half of me is alrdy dead..from the stress tat im giving myself tat is..seriously i think tat its kindof stupid larhs..to give urself so much stress when the others arent doing so..=.=..but i cant help myself..i really wan to do really well for this olvl..but ive lost much of my confidence(at least half alright..) after the chem and geog paper..i wan to cry out loud..but i cant do so..since ppl will start to think that im crazy..im starting to think tat im crazy anyway..ppl keep telling me to relax..not to give myself so much stress..but dunno why lerhs..maybe its because of my "dun-wanna-lose-to-others attitude" barhs..i keep pressuring myself to work harder..and keep setting really unrealistic goals..i seriously have no idea why im behaving like tat..i used to laugh at others who cry just because they give themselves too much stress..but now i come to think of it..actually i have no right to laugh at them..cus im behaving in the same way just like them..hais..im really scared tat i will really go crazy if this sort of thing carries on..believe it or not..im having insomnia every single night..i cant fall asleep until arnd 1am every night..and this sort of thing is really affecting my performance lorhs..im starting to hate myself alrdy..hais..forget abt it larhs..no use ranting on this stupid blog..i might as well make full use of the time to study..hais...someone help me pls..T.T
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